When I moved back to Montana from New York, I had big visions of what I was going to do with this blog, and in my life. Well, you know what they say about plans – they often go awry.
I ditched this blog about a year into my life here in Montana in favor of working. I had a full-time job at and office and a part-time job at a restaurant. I worked on developing what I thought would be my career, while setting myself up for financial security. I worked 60+ hours a week – because I thought that’s what I should be doing. I gave up spending time in the outdoors, getting away to enjoy the nature that brought me back to this valley in the first place.
And I was miserable. I didn’t even exactly know how miserable I was until I left my office job, and many people in my life came forward praising that decision, telling me that I never seemed to quite love it. I stuck with it because I’ve been afraid to not have that stability. I stuck with it because it made me feel like I had a direction. I stuck with it because it was what I thought should be my life path, and all of my goals had boiled down to following this job in the direction of a career.
But all of this left me worse off. Not because the job was terrible, but because the job made me terrible. I wasn’t the friend, daughter, or girlfriend I could’ve been in the past two years. My health took a huge sideline, and I had virtually zero creative outlet. A far cry from who I used to be.
I’m not exactly sure what direction I plan on going now. I know that I’m going to create a better work/life balance. I know that I’m going to take some time to work on myself (because let’s face it, we’re all works in progress). I’m going to get all the creative projects that have been floating around in my head for years off the ground. I’m going to explore, and enjoy life. I’m going to stop focusing on making money and focus on making memories.
That being said, I’m not even entirely sure what direction this blog is going to take. I can’t really foresee myself doing style posts, making cocktails, and really much of what I’ve spent the past, I don’t know? 8 years focusing on? But I know that I need it in my life again. I need to put the work in, I need to be writing, I need to be taking pictures, I need to be sharing what I love with the world around me.
So for those of you that have stuck around for these past 2 years, and those of you that may be new to this, thank you for your patience, support, and your time. I can’t wait to see what new direction this all takes